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Jul. 9th, 2008 @ 04:24 pm (no subject)
Current Location: JAX Florida
Current Mood: jubilant
Current Music: In your Eyes by The Used
So this saturday is Jays and my 3 month anniversary, which we find is funny because it seems like we have been dating for longer. We really care about each other and miss each other terribly. I obviously can't wait to go home, but not just to see him, no to see my bestest friends in the whole world, people that I have been friends with for 6 years. No but getting to the subject at hand Jay is a great guy and I didn't realize how bad Dan hurt me until now. I mean I know he obviously hurt me bad he cheated on me, but I thought that I was fine, but no, if I could go back in time I would have never dated him. Because of him I get upset more easily because in the back of my mind I'm still afraid that it will happen again even though I know it won't. I get upset for stupid things and get upset with Jay because these stupid things that shouldn't bother me do, but the best part about Jay is he tries to make it all better and he hasn't let me down. I get anxious when he calls late cuz I'm afraid that he won't call me at all like Dan did. I use to get anxious when he would get tired and space out like Dan did. Ultimately I just felt that I didn't deserve Jay because I was getting upset over the stupidest things and getting angry with him, then i would realize what i was doing and tell him that it is not his fault. We have had many discussions over this and he firmly and adamantly said that I do deserve him and that i'm an awesome person and he wouldn't leave me or get upset with me for getting upset over these trivial things because he knows that Dan caused this and he is trying to make it so that I don't get anxious anymore by getting me to talk about what is bothering me by telling me if I have an issue with him to always say something and get it off my chest. He repeatedly has told me that I should have never been through what I have been through in my life including my issues with my mom Bridget. He tells me that is sux that such an awesome person had to be hurt so many times. He cares for me very much and I care for him very much and I hope it continues to work because we have no secrets from each other and we like it that way, we are so close and we don't want to lose each other and we have promised each other to never do anything to compromise our relationship, because it would have to be something terrible to break us apart. I just wanted you guys to know about this and my problems caused by Dan and how Jay is right by my side comforting me and helping me I hope you guys truly find a guy like him one day because I am so happy right now and I want you guys to feel what I feel everyday, cuz at the end of the day when everyone is angry with you, you know that that one person isn't and that they are there for you every step of the way and its a wonderful feeling to know that you are not alone.


Love,
Robbin Zombie
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Jun. 16th, 2008 @ 05:01 pm Saturday June 14
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Everlong by The Foo Fighters
So as you may or may not know this past Saturday was Jay and my 2 month anniversary. I know that I have been gone for a month and most people like to point that out when I tell them, but I'm so excited about it. I mean this is the longest I've been in a real relationship with someone. I'm just so happy because I have been looking for this for a awhile now and I've finally found it. Jay is just an awesome human being, we have so much in common and we have been through very similar things in our lives. He knows everything about me and I know everything about him. We talk about anything and everything, if I upset he gets me to talk about the problem which is good cuz I like to internalize and he knows that. He knows about my childhood and Bridget (my "mom"). We talk every night and have talked every night since the first phone call after we first met. He knows how other guys have hurt me and he promises he never will and I know that other guys have said that, but this is the first time I have believed one. He is supportive and loving. He is happy that he found me and I am happy that I found him. I trust him completely and I know that you guys may think I'm crazy but him and I have an awesome relationship and I hope that one day you guys can be with someone that makes you feel that way he makes me feel. I'm just so happy and I love the way he treats me and just everything. I can't wait for you guys to meet him and just see what I am talking about. I miss you guys, I am coming back the first week in August and we are so hanging out. WOO GIRLS NIGHT


Love You Guys,
Robbin' Zombie
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May. 28th, 2008 @ 10:40 am You Guys Are My Cupcakes
Current Location: Jacksonville, Florida
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: Everlong by The Foo Fighters
Ok so I've been down in Florida for almost two weeks and it's kinda killing me. I miss my friends, my boyfriend, and STL. Sure the beach is nice, but I don't really know what to do I don't have any friends down here, most of the people at the restaurant are older or just want to get fucked up after work. My cousin is still in school so I don't really have much to do. I can't stand to be away for Jay it sucks cuz we care about each other so much and I had to leave to go to Florida early in the relationship. But we talk every night like we have since we exchanged numbers. I miss being in his arms and hanging out and watching movies. I miss all my friends especially since I really didn't get to see them cuz they were busy or sick or tired. I'm missing all the fun and not so fun stuff they are doing and I just miss them. I miss roller derby and all my girls, yes there is a team down here and I'm trying to practice with them so that I can stay in shape for when I come back. I just miss everything and everyone. But I'm still having fun and hopefully people can come down and visit me, that would be super sweet.  I love and miss everyone
Love,
Robbin' Zombie
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Apr. 21st, 2008 @ 10:24 am My Date
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: In Your Eyes by The Used
Okay so my date on saturday went awesome. I got off of work at 4:30 and during work Jay and I texted back and forth all day, and work went slow, but I got off of work and went home. He didn't get off until 5 so i took my time getting ready. I just wore jeans a cute t-shirt and my awesome belt, no big deal. Then drove up to his house, he lives with Suckerpunch Sara, unfortunately he lives by the airport, but that is only like a 20 min drive. I was sooo excited. So I got there and he gave me a little tour, they have three fish tanks a dog named sasha (shes an attention whore like roxanne) and a devil bunny. His room is currently in the basement but he is moving upstairs and basically we just watched movies and cuddled on the couch in the tv room in the basement. It was really nice and I enjoyed every minute of it. He is really a sweet guy and and can't wait to meet you guys and he is excited to introduce me to his friends. He is really lovey and affectionate like me and that is what I have been looking for. He loves to cuddle YEAH and hes really good at it. Him and I have awesome conversations every night and he is one of those guys that doesn't really have long phone conversations. I really excited about this one, because his a a dork like us he loves rockband, guitarhero, etc he likes comic books and his fave x-men is Gambit Yeah he LOVES horror flicks the bloodier the better. He is just a big teddy bear and his mind was born in the gutter just like the rest of us. He also makes me laugh a lot.  He is also very respectful and made sure I was comfortable on saturday. So basically he asked me to be his girlfriend and I accepted based on our conversations and they way he treats me, which is awesome, hopefully this one works out, because getting hurt sux. I really hope you guys will like him, I'm pretty sure you will and its cute because he really wants to impress you guys I told him not to worry and that you guys proabley would because he's awesome.
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Mar. 21st, 2008 @ 12:13 am (no subject)
Current Location: My own personal hell
Current Mood: enraged
Current Music: 'Summer Shudder" by AFI
Work fuckin sucked. I had consumables again thats twice in a row, which means I have easter shit. I got my zone and reshop done by 10:15 which is fuckin awesome considering I had easter shit (Robert helped me with the freezers, easter, and the cereal wall.) We then moved to C run which hadn't been touched and basically zoned the entire C run with Antonia. Then Robert ,Antonia ,and I went to B run which fuckin sucks cuz its stationary and party. They had stuck cashiers there to zone it but the had gotten 3 aisles done (MAYBE) in an hour so Antonia, Robert, and I zoned the rest of that, then they had Robert go to toys cuz the fuckin bitch in toys had to leave at 11:00 to grab the bus and didn't zone her section at ALL and had 2 carts of reshop. When I finished in B and brought up some reshop I went to toys and helped Robert and Beth finish up the last 4 aisles. Then we moved to the infant aisles and Robert, Beth, and I zoned all 8 of those aisles, then we picked up shoes. Finally, They let us go home at 11:30, we close at 10:00, thats just stupid. My fuckin whole body hurts, we had 6 people working the floor which is fuckin stupid we need more people, but thats all they scheduled, but tomorrow they scheduled more, bastards. Easter is on Sunday so were fuckin swamped all week. But the best part is the chick that didn't fuckin do toys like she is paid to will never get written up cuz shes black, but I fuckin have gotten talked to twice cuz I haven't "gotten my zone done on time" Target can fuckin suck my balls and I can't wait until May when I can fuckin quit, the only reason why I stay is cuz I like the people. I just needed to get that out and now I am content. All I want to do is fuckin cuddle with someone right now, I need love damnit. I need the love, and no i am not talking about from a boy, just love in general.
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Mar. 2nd, 2008 @ 10:26 pm Skool
Current Location: The Real World (and yes it IS overrated)
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Papa Roach "No more Secrets"
As all of you know I basically spend ALL my time studying, just to end up with C's in Biology. I'm tired of it, I'm tired of working my ass off and not getting anywhere i that class, I hate it. I Love business, I love it the problem is I spend all my time studying for Biology that I don't study as much as I should for my other classes. I have decided to NOT be a Veterinarian anymore. I would love to be, but there is no way I can get into vet school with C's, which is all I have been getting. So if I were to spend the next 2 1/2 years somehow making it through organic biology (impossible), biochemistry (double impossible), and physics (a 49% is an A so crazy impossible), and then try to get into vet school I couldn't so I would have to fall back on business. But if I do okay in the business classes because I spent all my time on Biology then I might not get an awesome job. So I decided to drop Biology and do awesome in business, because I know I can. Even though i have wanted to be a vet since I was 8 I am soo happy now that I have decided to not waste my life on a dream I can't reach, plus I love business. Yes, I talked to Dad and Tina and they support me 100% they just wanted to make sure that I wasn't giving up on my dream just because it was hard. They agree with me and my decision and I am so happy right now. It feels like a weight has been lifted. Hello business world here I come.

Love yah guys and I don't know what I would do without you. You guys are the bestest friends a person can have, even though your all fuckin crazy.   *KISSES*


Love,
Robbin'  Zombie
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Feb. 25th, 2008 @ 05:56 pm MY GRANDMA IS AWESOME
Current Mood: ecstatic
Today I went over to see my grandparents to say hi. I noticed on their table a program from a show and asked my grandma what they saw. They saw Avenue Q, its the show that is a spin off of sesame street with puppets and shit. So I asked her what it was about and she explains that there was a Bert and Ernie (not named that of course) and Ernie was gay, I told her they both were in real life, she said well in the show Ernie was gay and was in love with Bert, but Bert didn't like him like that. She also told me that their was a young couple (her language) sitting in front of them making out the entire time. But the best part of this whole story was the fact that my grandma said pussy. She said at first it was okay and then it started getting really dirty and then they were talking about some girls pussy. I ALMOST PEED MYSELF. My grandma said pussy and I said grandma you can't say that and she was like thats what they said. So my grandma telling me about seeing this show they would have never seen if they knew what it was about and the fact that she said pussy made my day and made up for the fact that I missed my grandpa saying "homosexual" a couple of month ago. 
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Feb. 23rd, 2008 @ 12:10 am Live Journal
Current Location: STL
Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: Rise Against
Are you bitches happy, I'm finally on live journal. I love you guys and can't wait for tomorrow and cheap trx. See you then.
Loves,
Robbin' Zombie
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